My fleeting dreams have come to an end.
This is not just about love or my artistic goal but about financial
matters too. I have to spend all my deposit to ease the burden of
housing loan. I could never imagine my life after seventy but my
dauhter says that I'll continue to live no mattet what I say-I'd never
be able to kill myself as I claim. I never thought of my financial
situations seriously. I've led a life of dissipation, merely seeking for
unrequited love from women. Mimi seems to have gone again but I
do not care anymore. Women cannot be my major concern anymore.
( March 28, 2004 )