Almost evry night I stroll around my veranda watching over
the Funabori tower and realize that I'm really alone.
When I obtained a divorce about 9 years ago, I was determined
that I'd find a new spouse. But it never happened as I had wished.
I can recount many reasons for that but I think they would be
boiled down to one word......"INADEQUACY". Basically, I have been
behaving as if I were a decent citizen with an ample common sense
but at the same time I've always heard my second self say "Come on!
How can you be such a hypocrite? Don't you know what you are?
Aren't you ashamed of yourself?".
It seems I'd never be able to come out from this cul-de-sac.