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I have a strong inferiority complex against a beautiful woman. Only a glimpse of
such a woman makes me shrink and feel desperate.

All through my life I've never approached a woman I was extremely attracted. My heart
simply get frozen, my mouth speechless and my eyes dimmed with cloudsiness.
It has nothing to do with her inner world. I'm battered and affected deeply by her outer beauty.

It means I do not pay much attention to a woman who has a beautiful heart and inner self
but is not so beautiful. This has alienated me from worthy women anyway. (April 17, 2003)

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