(この世界は苦しいことばかり、死んでしまいたいと思う。しかし
死んでしまえばこの世のものとも思われないこの素晴らしい雲を
２度と目にすることはできないだろう。生きることは悲しいことである）

＊たえはてんと：絶え果てんと、死んでしまおうと

Since childhood I've sometimes felt the urge to quit my life.
When I was 11 years old, I left my house one night and went
into a forest and buried myself in fallen leaves shivering with cold.
I heard the people calling me from afar. I looked up the twinkling
stars through the trees and thought that would be the last time
for me to be able to see them.
But I went back home early in the morning. I was merely a coward.

The thought of death, however, have kept hovering around me from
time to time. People say "plan ahead for your old age" but this was
the last thing I ever paid attention. Time is approaching when I must
face with reality more squarely.