My heart swells up when I see a beautiful flower. I'm reminded of my
unrequited love too, and wonder how many years are left for my life.
I do not want to live in senility, and at the same time, I think my life should  be over
when I'm not able to make love. I sometimes feel I'm a hollow man or a
stuffed man. But my strongest fear is I'd live a vegetable life without being able to
quit my existence when due.
(March 20, 2002)

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