(蜘蛛が動きを見せないということは古来の言い伝えによれば
恋い慕っている人が私のことなど思っていない証拠。今ごろは
他の男の腕の中で喜悦の声をあげているかも知れない。心配だ。
妬ましい。どうしてこの長い夜を過ごしたらよいのだろうか?)


*ささがに:蜘蛛*いづくや:何処かで
*逢ひにけらしも:逢っているのかも知れない
*Spider:In the old days it was believed that if a spider behaves
in a certain way, your lover will show up or, at least, appear in
your dream.

I am a jealous person.
I've felt jealous countless times of men who are popular with
women or with some special ability which I do not have. I've been
jealous with women who dropped me for other men.
Regarding with women, however, I've never been angry with them
even though I suffered as if there'd be no future in life. In case of
lost love, I tend to blame myself first. I may cry, curse, shout,
refuse to eat and drink excessively but never get angry with the
woman who discarded me. After all It's my fault. I'm not sexy enough
or my personality is not desiable.
Sometimes some men kill their former mates when they were
forsaken. Perhaps those men have a very high opinion about
themselves and couldn't take the fact there exists someone who
could deny their merit. They must be very happy fellows indeed to be 
able to think so highly of themselves.

So dear women, I may have so many defects but at least you
wouldn't be killed when you dropped me!











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