I've been inert mentally for the past month. In May, for ezample I wrote only
one poem. I feel I'm inept to say anything. It's dreadful to imagine I have no
message to this world, to you or to myself. Since M has left me I'm like a
living carcass.

To change my life, I've started to write a new book-"My Documentary Method-
Mass Calculation Structure".. I hope I can finish writing this book within this
year. (June 4, 2003)