When I face nature squarely, very often, I cannot help but
take off my hat and pray for eternity. I feel I regained my
childhood and enjoy the sensation as if I were embraced in a
lap of the Great Mother. Then, I repent my stupidity....selfishness,
narrow-mindedness, greed, jealousy, self-pity, fatten ego etc, etc...
However, I always get afraid to go any further than that. When I
was a small boy, I often mused upon that overwhelming question-
"Why does the world exist?", "Why do we live?". When I looked up
at the blue sky thinking of it, I felt my soul was vacuumed into it and
found myself unable to breathe. It was frightening!
Basically, I have not grown much after that. Mentally I am still a child.
I must live this world as a child and, I must say, it's quite difficult.